i hate being alive

 i hate being alive, 
why do I have to wake up every day. 
I keep begging to god, 
but he doesn't listen to what I say. 

I wake up upset at life,
I go to sleep upset at death.
"please let me fucking die", 
I keep asking with every breath. 

But life goes on, 
another day, another mess. 
Why do I keep going, 
who am I trying to impress. 

Trying to prove something to someone, 
trying to show that there is hope. 
When drugs, alcohol and sleep, 
is the only way that I can cope. 

Hello, Goodbye, Fuck off, I say. 

I go to sleep to escape my day. 

Fuck

Have you learned how to suffer yet

One hit, two hit, three,
my bloody lip is all you see.
Four hit, Five hit, six hit, Hi,
am I still pretty when I smile?

Well, have you learned how to suffer yet,
how to enjoy all the pain and be without regret,
Use the blood as fuel to nurture the fire,
make it so pain is all you desire.

Because this world is  unforgiving,
Sinning is the only way of living,
And if you dare to have a good heart,
this world will absolutely rip you apart.



Use your blood to shine your shoes because theyll be upset if you dont look your best.