I wonder if they know,
how behind my smile and fassade,
my doubt and selfhatred remains,
how and where my sick brain reigns.
I wonder if they know,
that the drugs didnt quiet me down,
little cover they provide from the toxic rain,
that is the hurricane of my brain.
I wonder if they know,
that my heart is still closed off.
How I still barely feel love or trust,
anyone, even though i must.
I wonder if they know,
how my smile is a lie.
Hiding a fucked up mind,
even though I act so kind.
I wonder if they know,
how even though I am happy,
my thoughts remain the same.
I wonder if they know.
how behind my smile and fassade,
my doubt and selfhatred remains,
how and where my sick brain reigns.
I wonder if they know,
that the drugs didnt quiet me down,
little cover they provide from the toxic rain,
that is the hurricane of my brain.
I wonder if they know,
that my heart is still closed off.
How I still barely feel love or trust,
anyone, even though i must.
I wonder if they know,
how my smile is a lie.
Hiding a fucked up mind,
even though I act so kind.
I wonder if they know,
how even though I am happy,
my thoughts remain the same.
I wonder if they know.