i think therefore I can lie ?

I understand that he wants contact. But no matter what I say he laughs. Maybe that is his humor? is he mackin fun of me or am i being a bitch to a guy who is just a bit weird. 

that sounds rude. i guess it is. 

but the goal is to be positive. Or at least neutral which is better than my normal. 

am i scared to be cringe? perhaps. i dont know wether the thouights in my head are real or just an imagination of what I would expect a person to sound on this amount of drugs. 

I think the brain isn't supposed to question itself like this. 

 to be called hard working and deserve success you have to actually work a lot. 

i dont like it

friends with famous people

Sometimes I wonder about famous people.
How do they get friends? Everyone around them must want so much from them and they are just humans trying to exist in this world. I hope they have genuine friendships.
I would be their friend. But then again no. Because humans are difficult.
But I would like to try to be their friend. A couple conversations without being seen as a fan, as an equal. Just a friendly chat with no predjudice.
I would make the best sarcastic celebrity friend though. Just sending them memes about them all the time while also being super supportive and always having cookies and their favourite chips at home so they can have some when theyre in the neighbourhood. I would insult them to their face while we both can't breath because of a joke someone said, they would retaliate with their Instagram Follower count and I would make a scene, pretending to be upset that they dont share their clout with me. We would have a good laugh and continue watching the netflix series.
It just you know.
Maybe would be fun. 

How to have an Eating Disorder

Step One: Eat. 

Step Two: Hate yourself before, while and after eating. 

And you're done. Have fun :)

The Kids Today Are Too Sad

Trying to write is like wanting to force your soul out.
Sometimes it is just too scared to show itself. 

I mean, it is understandable. 

This world is cruel as fuck, no one gets spared. 

Even small kids experience this pressure. 

More and more young kids get incredibly sad. 

Isn't this sad? 

Probably. 

But then again this just shows how bad this world always was. 

I mean, it didn't really change, did it? 

It's just that the sad people got a voice. 

It's just that the sad people get heard. 

Sorry normal people for having to listen to our bullshit. 

I know how terrible it is, but guess what. 

For us it is every day. Every. Fucking. Day. 

Imagine, hating yourself. Every Day. 

Like always. 

Sound nice, doesn't it. 

A life worth living, isn't it. 

Ah ye, sarcasm. How much I love it. 

And life. 

Yeah.