alone and in pain

Far away from home,
laying crying on the ground,
covering my mouth with my hands,
blocking out the sound,
of my internal pain,
fueled my loneliness again,
I am trapped in my mind,
full of thunder and rain.

Rolled up, not able to move,
my little heart is getting torn apart,
I can't do anything against it,
depression is hitting me hard.
It is ripping into my soul,
bloody pieces laying everywhere,
another crying sound escapes my mouth,
its not like anyone cares.

Music blasting loud,
so no one hears me scream.
Yet I hope someone would come,
but no one will, so it does seem.
I am alone, in pain, again,
always am, always will be,
its not like at any point,
someone will care about me.

Silver metal ripping into my skin,
the darkness is getting what it needs,
red blood to satisfy its hunger,
its doesnt care that someone bleeds.
It just wants to destroy a soul,
and I am the victim, I guess thats good,
so noone else is getting tortured,
so noone else is in a bad mood.

I am crying, screaming,
yet I cant make a sound.
Always in pain, its okay,
the darkness now is bound.
No one else has to endure it,
just me, over and over again,
but I am used to this,
Im used to being alone and in pain.